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Nostalgia's Muse
03:29
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Verse:
It came to me like daylight saw it in a past life
Held it in my palms as I reached for the divine
Waiting for a reason
If I could wake the sky up tell it that I’m tired
Sick of having dreams where my lungs fill with fire
I could have some freedom
Pre:
Need a better cover these days ‘stead of waking up calling his name
‘Stead of screamin at the mirror tryna make something change
It’s too loud in my mind and too quiet in this bed
Chorus:
Don’t make me sink into it all again
I’m tired of being memory’s best friend
Posing for a picture of my youth
Stuck being nostalgia’s muse
Verse:
Well if my heart is healing should I still have this feeling
When I kiss his lips and it’s tastes like I’m stealing
Cause I don’t have the answers and he’s waiting for the answers
Pre:
Need a better story these days ‘stead of making up things to save face
‘Stead of singing to my ego tryna make something change
It’s too loud in my mind and too quiet in this bed
Chorus:
Don’t make me sink into it all again
I’m tired of being memory’s best friend
Posing for a picture of my youth
Stuck being nostalgia’s muse
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2. |
Anyone
03:10
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Verse:
Listen I know how it is between us
Changes in time zones ain’t easy and
Love doesn’t play like the movies
Can’t catch a flight just to see me ‘cause
You got your plans and I’ve got mine
So I’ll meet you when the stars align
(I’ll be dreamin’ about it)
Pre:
Showers at midnight, You at my bedside
Tearin’ my heart in two
Under the covers, Baby no other
Could fit with you like I do
Chorus:
I know you better than anyone else
I know you better than anyone else
Verse:
All of this tension is not in my nature
Rather kill time your arms but
I’m lost in the place we created
Back when my love was enough
But not you have your plans and I have mine
So I’ll meet you when the stars align
(I’ll be dreamin’ about it)
Pre:
Chorus:
Bridge:
12am feels different here without you
Our love flickers I don’t want to doubt you
Wide awake trying to rewrite our history
Play it all back ‘til it’s stained in my memory
x2
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3. |
I Did What I Did
02:49
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VERSE:
Friday in neon
The girl to the left of me’s jaded
She can’t feel her face
I’m on the roof
Way too sober for this conversation
Can you give me some space?
My best friend’s acting a fool she’s had too much to drink
Mmm
Her vision’s blurred she thinks that he’s been staring at her
But he’s looking at me
PRE:
The guy that she’s here for’s a drag
He’s feelin’ me up when she turns her back
I kissed a boy and he tasted like cig
Everything happened so quick
I don’t remember his name
Or even then reason I came
I’ll never see him again
Can’t say I’m proud but I did what I did
VERSE:
2am phone calls
You’re still on my speed dial I hate it
But are you still up?
Talkin’ in the other room
So she won’t hear you saying
She’s not enough
Truth is I just want attention I’m not still attached
mmm
But if you wanna tell me I’m the best that you’ve had
I’m cool with that
PRE:
I’m showin’ up at your house
You know you shouldn’t come out
I blame the past, I blame the night
For making me think this was right
Screw all the feelings I just
Wanna be feeling your touch
I’m kinda lonely I’m kinda lit
Can’t say I’m proud but I did what I did
OUTRO:
I’m not normally This unholy
My priorities Are abnormally
Disproportionally (filled with) uncertainty
Take my mentality Give me morality
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4. |
Jaded
04:00
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Verse:
Used to have 20/20 vision of myself and dreams
Now I doubt who I’m becoming and who the hell I think I’ve been
Ah nah nah
And you don’t see a difference
Used to see the best in people had a hold on my ideals
Now I’m getting apathetic, now I’m seein’ what’s real
And I hate it
You took the bliss of ignorance
Pre:
(I, I, I) I wanna feel wanna feel anything
(I, I, I) I wanna feel anything
Chorus:
But now I’m jaded just like you
Jaded got me feelin so tired and blue
You soured my sweetness
Your bitterness creeped in
And left me with nothing but truth
Now I’m jaded just like you
Verse:
Take it back to when we started didn’t fear the love I gave
I used to be a lot cooler ‘til you spent the love we made
Now I’m selfish
And choosey with my energy
Pre:
(I, I) I wanna feel wanna feel anything
(I, I, I) I wanna feel anything
Chorus:
Bridge:
Catching up to me slowly
Made the move to the city
But the lights aren’t bright enough to keep me blind
Bored with the cycle
Need a disciple
To turn all of the darkness into light
Chorus:
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5. |
Appetite
01:15
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One step foward two steps back
Getting pretty tired getting off track
You wanted perfection and I’m not that
You let me know
Two years going down the drain
Watch it all go by clouded window pains
I want something better but my heart is stained
You let me know
Now any peace of mind I had was gone
I learned to go but never learned how to move on
Now I’ve lost my appetite again
It’s not worth it but you swear it is
And I hold on ‘cause I’m afraid of change
And you know that
And you use that
And you break me ‘til I love you
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6. |
Clothes
02:50
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Verse:
Am I losing you right now?
I can see my love leaving your eyes right in front of me
Can feel you shutting down
I can see the distance growing right in front of me
Pre:
Wanna talk about God and the universe
Wanna talk about you and me the both of us
How come the closest that we get is when our clothes are off?
How come the closest that we get is never close enough?
Chorus:
You’re just the same as me
And that’s what scares me most
Push away good things
And swear we’re better off
Verse:
Now tables they are turning
Tasting my own medicine is a little bit bitter now
Ain’t it funny how the world works
Finally finding something real and it only lets you down
Pre:
Wanna talk about god and the universe
Wanna talk about you and me the both of us
How come the closest that we get is when our clothes are off?
How come the closest that we get is never close enough?
Chorus:
You’re just the same as me
And that’s what scares me most
Push away good things
And swear we’re better off
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7. |
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Verse:
Ridin’ to nowhere on 65
You were makin’ fun of the way I drive
We were layin’ in the churchyard lookin for signs
Like a fallen star, or the voice of divine
I thought of you when I heard that song
‘cause it hurt just right when I sang along
I always suspected the darkness in you
I was keepin the light on hoping you’d come through
Pre:
If i memorized the change in the wind
Would it make you remember the places we’ve been
If I told you that I still had hope would it make you recall
Chorus:
We were dreaming ‘bout fame in a crystal mansion
You were singing my name like your national anthem
Oh yeah
We were adding up sins in the city of angels
We were sneaking in and getting kicked out later
Oh yeah, oh yeah
Does it make you remember why you fell in love?
Verse:
You were baptized in southern sun
And I grew up with my soul on the run
But I watch you play your songs from the side of the stage
You could turn me to the book write your name on the page
Pre:
If I memorized the beat of your heart
Would it take you back to where it all started
If I told you that I still had hope would it make you recall
Chorus:
Bridge:
Nothing competes with a memory
Maybe you’ll love me when I finally leave
You’re not the man that I thought you’d be
But I still dream
Chorus:
We were dreaming ‘bout fame in a crystal mansion
You were singing my name like your national anthem
Oh yeah
We were adding up sins in the city of angels
We were sneaking in and getting kicked out later
Oh yeah, oh yeah
We were going 99 on pacific highway
I said if I’m gonna die I’m gonna do it my way
Oh yeah, oh yeah
Does it make you remember why you fell in love?
Does it make you remember why you fell in love?
Oh say you remember why you fell in love
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8. |
Then & Now
03:44
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Verse:
I gave up too fast when things were too bad I will admit that
Why can’t we learn to forgive and forget?
We had a good thing no sense in ending it’d be a damn shame
Why can’t we learn to work on what we had?
Pre:
‘Cause all of the things that we never did yeah
Checks on our list ah
We know that all we have is time
And it’s working against us
Chorus:
I loved you then
Oh baby I will love you now
I loved you then
Oh baby I will love you now
Verse:
We had a wild love I watched it grow up til we came undone
I’m sorry that I let the flower die
Oh but I still feel that we could refill the glass that we spilled
Oh we can turn this water into wine
Pre:
Chorus:
Outro:
If you mean it come and weather the storm
Fight like lovers grow together in turn
If you want this then come as you are
If you want this, If you want this
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9. |
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when your heart breaks wide open
& you’re scared of your own emotion
But for a moment you don’t feel so alone
This is what’s it’s like to be known
When you’re on your knees in the kitchen
Just asking Jesus to listen
‘Cause you can’t hold the weight on your own
This is what it’s like to be known
When your mama knows the state you’re in
Even when you’re good at faking it
Like she sees all the fragments of your soul
This is what it’s like to be known
When a breath of holy friendship
Can take your heart and mend it
Remind you who you are & where you’re going
This is what it’s like to be known
When standing by the ocean
Makes you feel so unimportant
Just a temporary piece of the whole
This is what it’s like to be known
When the gravity of grace
Wraps you up in her embrace
& you don’t deserve the mercy you’re shown
This is what it’s like to be known
I have loved you when you’re not easy to love
Does it scare you that I’ve never given up?
Don’t you believe me when I tell you this is home?
This is what it’s like to be known
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Natalie Madigan Nashville, Tennessee
Unapologetically herself, Natalie Madigan is a wordsmith with the style of a pop princess. Her music showcases themes of love, heartbreak and growth in the human experiences of life through the lens of her ever-changing perspective.
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